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poem \"Troubled Soul\"

Troubled Soul --12.12.05 Monday--
in the silence of the dark,
tears roll down her cheeks;
reminders of the past,
chasing her for weeks;
in the darkness she is lost,
while in the day she is found;
but only in the night,
is she truly broken down.

in the light of hopes now past,
distant thunders of those troubled weeks;
demons chasing at her tail,
but only in surrender does she speak.
"why can't i see what they see,
whenever they look at me?"
such a simple question;
such a troubled soul.

in the farthest reaches of the mind,
she wonders if anything will combine;
will anything truly go her way?
or will everything always end in dismay?
in the darkness she succumbs,
so long thought as useless,
so long thought as unloved;
struggling still to see the light,
but only in the dark does it fail to shine.

laughter's distant ring;
such a long time ago it seems.
reminders of such better things,
but they can't help her to reach past;
they can't help her to find a grasp.
underneath it all she still struggles,
so long now she's tricked herself to believe.
maybe in the mirror,
one day,
she will see...

but for now,
she can only hope to see;
but for now,
she can only cry herself to sleep;
but for now,
she can only lean on them,
finding in them the strength,
the truth,
and possibly the hope to continue on.

silence surrounds her,
as loneliness is her only call;
in the darkness of so many days,
so many weeks;
only in the night does she succumb;
only in the quiet does she fall.
rolling down her cheeks,
her tears bare forth her soul,
spilling forth the pain,
the hurt;
the demons chasing at her tail.

11:53 PM - 12.12.05 Monday

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